As I mentioned before, I do not know how to forgive. When someone cheats on you, regardless of whether you take that person back or not, if they remain in your life for whatever reason, you still never ever really trust them. My lack of trust is so deep that I wouldn't even trust that person with my vaseline and my washcloths unless I was in the room. So sad. I need to work that shit out! One day, I will see that not every person that hurts you, set out purposely to do so. It just wont be TOday. So as I retire for the night, Im going to bed angry. Im angry at myself for being angry over something that I can not control, should have no need to control or (to be totally honest) even care about enough to be angry. The things that strike a nerve with me baffle me. There are no two days alike. What I may have been okay with yesterday, or last week this time, could piss me off so much and send me in a tantrum today or tomorrow
I think I need to talk to God about this one cause my unbalanced emotions could give anyone involved motion sickness, self included. - Anyway doe! Night bloggers
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